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Journal Entry: Fri May 26, 2006, 1:40 PM
this was originally written on my xanga, but i figured it'd be of some relevance here as well, this being a site to unleash creativity and all that.

:below: please check it out... for me?? :below:

well things have been pretty damn turbulent lately... i've been through so many changes lately, jumping from one extreme to another... i was deeply confused, angry, depressed, apathetic, manic, etc, almost all at once. i had a series of major emotional breakdowns, outbursts, and revelations, and finally i listened to what everybody seemed to be telling me. while my life always seemed pretty normal and mundane in my eyes, it seemed as though i could get nobody else to agree with me here, in fact, everybody seemed to go as far as to say that my life would make a best-selling autobiography.

the pressure just became too great, especially after one person even offered to help me edit. i stepped back and took a good hard look at myself from an objective viewpoint, and realized, holy crap everybody is right. you can say a lot about me and my life, but one thing you gotta admit is that it's been one hell of a ride! so, starting last night, i got my ass busy and started working on my autobiography.

it's coming much more naturally than i anticipated, which is really encouraging. i've found that through writing, i'm achieving a sort of inner peace and i guess you could say i'm actually pretty proud of myself for once. so far i've already got a working title (no holds barred: a brutally honest autobiography), a very rough outline of the chapters, an idea of exactly how i want it written, and i've completed a few chapters already (chapter one of part two, as well as a few for part one), and the dedication. keep in mind i've only been working on this for a few hours total, as i started just last night and i actually got a good nights sleep before i picked up where i left off.

writing has really become very therapeutic to me, and is helping me 100 times more than the court ordered therapy ever could, and let me just add here, to those who have so much faith in the psychological industry, i have never consumed a single pill of that depakote crap that was prescribed to me. even when i was trapped in the confines of a psych ward, i always, always cheeked my pills and spit them out, i never consumed a single damn pill of that brain-washing drug. if i'm gonna consume a mind altering substance, it's gonna be one of my choosing, such as dextromethorphan or heroin or something along those lines. so, in your face, medical community.as of the past few days i'm the most well adjusted person i've yet to meet, and i have only myself and the encouragement of true friends to thank for it!

i think one thing that helped me in my resolve to actually go through with this, was the feedback i've gotten from people on this site. the understanding and encouraging words really meant a lot more to me than the people who left them will probably ever realize. so, thanks for that, i suppose.

i'll keep you all updated on the progress with my book, thanks to all my readers and supporters.

tschuss ~ voltz

Devious Information

  • Current Age: 22
  • Current Residence: philadelphia
  • Interests: art, writing, music, movies, long walks at night, drugs, sharp blades
  • Favourite movie: requiem for a dream, the jacket, rambo, v for vendetta, saw + saw II, collateral, the invisible
  • Favourite band or musician: feindflug, rammstein, megaherz, skinny puppy, ministry, nirvana, smashing pumpkins, ccr
  • Favourite genre of music: industrial, grunge, electronic, synthpop, punk, classic rock, metal, powernoise
  • Favourite artist: far too many to choose.
  • Favourite poet or writer: jack london, george orwell, kurt vonnegut, ray bradbury, aldous huxley, marya hornbacher, etc.
  • Favourite game: 'i'm a tragic hero in this game called life'
  • Personal Quote: life is a war that will kill us all in the end, victory is equivalent to personal happiness.
  • Tools of the Trade: the fabric of reality + the power of my own mind

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*realWolfshade:iconrealWolfshade: 2 hours 45 minutes ago
Thx so much for the watch :)

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!amyperticone:iconamyperticone: Mar 1, 2008, 3:59:35 AMFlagged as spam
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Wow! You really are a brilliant poet, aren't you?

Why don't you join the poetry contest from [link] ?


It's free and every nitwit such as myself who enters gets a small gift

but someone like you might win one of their $10 000 or $100 000 prizes.
~soulcircle:iconsoulcircle: Jun 1, 2006, 7:43:50 PM
thanks for the add!

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~cream-of-aspen:iconcream-of-aspen: Jun 1, 2006, 5:26:15 PM
thanks for the lovely comment and the watch :]

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~alexmayr:iconalexmayr: May 31, 2006, 12:56:33 PM
thank you so much for watching me ! :hug:

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~dragoncave:icondragoncave: May 29, 2006, 8:31:57 AM
**ROAR** welcome to club young Dragon !!! ;)
~Aludrasfriend:iconAludrasfriend: May 27, 2006, 8:46:48 PM
thank u for the watch

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~elykoms:iconelykoms: Sep 12, 2004, 9:55:00 AM
whoa!! great!!

I'll be lookin' forward for more

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Lead me not into temptation; I can find it myself.
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*Att0m:iconAtt0m: Jun 2, 2004, 9:57:58 AM
You do amazing work, I hope to see more soon!
~Asb2005:iconAsb2005: May 29, 2004, 6:01:55 PM
hey, i really like your gallery. i especially like turquoise
*Tsurumaru:iconTsurumaru: May 22, 2004, 7:17:35 AM
=D lots of love :heart: :heart: :heart:

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[.What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain, as he slowly fell apart.]
~scubby:iconscubby: May 19, 2004, 7:00:27 AM
awww ;) i love the photo! you're awesome!

oh, and thanks for looking at my schtuff. :)
~AtomicSquid:iconAtomicSquid: Nov 19, 2003, 2:01:13 AM
I ran across your icon in the rammstein-fans club and thought it was cool so I took a look at your gallery. Well, I commented on one of your pictures but as I looked through all of them, it became apparent that I could save a lot of time by just saying it right here: all your drawings rock! You are very talented! :+fav: and +deviantWatch (no I'm not a stalker, I just think your art's cool!) :D
~centrifuge:iconcentrifuge: Jul 23, 2003, 11:58:22 PM
thanx a ton for all the comments!!! I really appreciate them. I am sorry for the lateness f the reply.

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you know you want to check out my prints...

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~dacher:icondacher: Jul 10, 2003, 5:33:07 PM
thank you for the welcome, you have a great gallery!
~sketchyheart:iconsketchyheart: Jun 8, 2003, 5:51:03 PM
Thanks for your comment! Yea, I used an imaging software to tint my little elf.. tinting with imaging softaware is so much fun.. though i guess some might call it cheating o.o;; Not cheating! NOO! *hides under some pillows*

*goes to snoops around the gallery*
~xue1:iconxue1: Jun 5, 2003, 2:43:26 PM
hei! thanks a bunch for the comment on [link] ! it means so much! thank you

you're a really wonderful artist yourself! really unique style! :D (Big Grin)
!sbrooden:iconsbrooden: May 14, 2003, 2:02:02 PM
thanks for the comment
$spyed:iconspyed: Apr 10, 2003, 3:15:37 AM
Have you ever had a dream, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?

What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire deviant life, that there's something wrong with the story. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.

You take the blue pill, the story ends. Your browser closes and you believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland. And, I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

I offer only the truth, nothing more.

Take: The Red Pill
Take: The Blue Pill

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Ninja Point Right I know. That's why it's going to work.

Do not try and bend the spoon ...

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~mar1an0:iconmar1an0: Mar 26, 2003, 11:16:32 AM
Thanks for the comment ... let me take a look at your gallery :) (Smile)



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~kernelb0i:iconkernelb0i: Feb 17, 2003, 9:35:08 AM
hey thanks loads for the fav and the watch and the comment. you've got some nice drawings in your gallery, and that desktop is reeeeallly badass looking.

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and he said to me, "I hate working two jobs, I never get to butcher anyone anymore. I just kill em and bury em in the plot behind my house. it's just like sometimes you forget it's the little things that make life worth living"